Tuesday, April 20, 2010
9:30 AM
Yes ! you're the only one thinks that it impossible that cant go there and back by 1 day.
Yes. it cannot be done if you didnt make early preparation, but i different, my uncle had prepared everything. They actually wanted me to stay for another day so i dun have to rush, and they can pay a lower rate for the ticket. but i insist on coming back just to see you.. from this i can see that i cant leave you even for a night. i keep on rushing rushing and therefore im back in the morning.
As for the phone thing, let me tell you. if you got the chance to fight here and there like me, you will know why i can actually reply your msg. YES, you called me, but did i ans your call? NO ! i cant ans as it will affect the flight. it may cause the plane to crush but how can i dun msg you when you actually called me 3 times? im so worried about you when you call. I had no choice but to msg you to ask you what happen secretly..
until now, i had been thinking, why would i lie to you abt this trip? will i gain anything from lying? No~ i wouldn't get any gain and is lying to you. I lied to my parent and i gain something, which is i can get back to SG asap to see you.
im not perfect but my love for you is & this is what you say. do you know during the whole journey i been staring at the letter and your photos? i can tell you, i read it for more than 20 times there.. i dunno can you feel how much i love you anot. but i really really didnt lie to you abt this trip.. you can dun believe me, but you cant be dun even believe your gans? i didnt blow things up.. on plane i been thinking how to settle with you face to face. but when i reach school i oso didnt know why they come talk to me. i didnt ask them for help either but i really appreciate for their help.
Si Si, i know you still love you. I admit im wrong to show you attitude. whatever i had said is just the anger i had. i really didnt mean it. your blog you post if we gt fate, when i get back will still be tgt but now. i cfm not going for the next 5 years time. then what shld we both be now? and for the next 50years? i had something to give you. hope you will keep it safe. or even wearing it everyday. closed all doors except mine? im really thank you for doing this for me, but for now, hais... i dunno will you still stick to this promise anot?
I told my parent to give me 5 years time to make myself useful, and they agree.. so dun be scare, i will treat this 5 years very precious as it concern me abt you and my future. if this 5 years i didnt done what i promise, i had to go, but if i had done it, they promised to let me stay here with you. in fact they ask me to really take good care of you, and to be the 1st one for you if you have problem and in order for me to do this i need your help.. i need you to tell me everything please do not keep things in yourself, i know it hurts as i used to be someone that always hide things in myself..
For those ppl who read this, do not ask Si Si and i, as she do not want to talk abt it anymore.. and i really vex already. thank you for not asking. goodbye.
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